=)

i was struck by thunder and swept away by a tidal wave

yes, it is now the bleakest of time,

but all i see are miracles

THANK YOU ALLAH =)

everyday miracle

"there are only two ways to live your life. one is as though nothing is a miracle. the other is as though everything is a miracle" - Albert Einstein

i choose the latter. but im still working towards that. i want to be able to wake up and realize that everything under the sun, and all that lies beyond it, is a miracle. if we cleanse our inner eye, it is possible to see this and to live in a state of continuous wonder. once upon a time, i suffered from acute-perfectionism-syndrome ;p i expected perfection in everything i do. and more often than not, i ended up in deep frustration, simply because i was hardly satisfied with the end result i produced. but as i grow up, i learn to forgive myself, reminding myself constantly that i can never reach perfection. i can only give my best and take whatever that comes my way. i have learnt that even the shittest thing can bring great wisdom. my perception of life is then transformed: where there was randomness, now there is a mysterious order to things, and every event becomes precious and meaningful, even in the bleakest of time.

kesempurnaan itu hanya milik Tuhan. kita manusia biasa hanya mampu jujur dan ikhlas.

of course, it is easy to experience this perspective when life is going well. it is much harder when we're in the middle of crisis and suffering. but i believe that everything in our life is miraculously orchestrated by the Upper Hand.

my brother asked me what my new year resolutions are. i told him i have none. not because i don't have plans and goals for next year. but simply because, i make new resolutions on daily basis instead of waiting for January 1st to come. when i wake up in the morning, i will make sure i give my best so that today will be better than yesterday. and if the day did not turn out that well, i will thank God for His blessings. because i know today He still sent me another rahmah and lesson, only the harder way. above all resolutions and wishes, i wish that my spiritual growth accelerates beyond my wildest dreams, and joy and certainty become constant features of my inner landscape.

if only every soul can see everything as a miracle and blessing, no matter how bad something is, tidak akan ada lagi penyakit hasad dengki mahupun virus iri hati, kerana segalanya akan diubati dengan penawar kesyukuran =)

jaw dropping facts

• if you could spread out your lungs on the ground, unravelling all the the tiny little pockets, they would cover a tennis court
  
  
• the longest tape worm ever found in a human was 33 metres (around 108ft long)
  
  
• an amoeba common in water can travel up your nose while you are swimming and live in your brain, where it multiplies rapidly and kills you in three to seven days
  
  
• when you die, the bacteria in your gut start to eat away at you from the inside
  
  
• Rhinotillexomania is the scientific word for picking your nose
  
  
• Hookworms can infest people who walk barefoot. they bore through the skin of the feet and travel in the blood to the lungs, where they come out and crawl up to the throat, to be swallowed and start a new life in the gut
  
  
• Horses killed in the first world war were recycled as explosives. their fat was removed and boiled down to be used in making TNT
  
  
• In Texas, there is an annual rattle snake round-up. what to do with all the rattle snakes? skin them, gut them, cut them into chunks, cover in batter and deep fry. another way of cooking snakes in Texas- cut the head off, skin and gut it, poke a stick into the neck, wrap the snake loosely around the stick and roast over a campfire
  
  
• the worst flu epidemic ever came in 1918 at the end of World War I. it killed 21million people- twice as many as died in the war
  
  
• all the bacteria living inside your body would fill 6 teaspoons
  
  
• urine doesn't contain bacteria. becalmed or shipwrecked sailors used to drink it with no ill-effects

• a very fat person who flushes an aeroplane toilet while still sitting on it can have their rectum sucked out by the pull of the toilet's flush
  
  
• Theban king Mithradites (132-63 BCE) took small doses of poison regularly to develop immunity and protect himself from poisoners. when he later wanted to kill himself, the poison he took did not kill him
  
  
• when ancient Egyptians mummified someone, they used a special long-handled spoon to scoop the brains out through the dead person's nose. they often fed the brain to animals
  
  
• most people have mites- very tiny creatures related to spiders, living in their eyelashes, eyebrows, ears and noses
  
  
• pilgrims to the Tirupati temple in India give some of their hair as a sacrifice. the temple employs 600 barbers who work day and night to shave pilgrims, taking 6.5 million gifts of hair a year. the hair is sold to wig-makers and for use as fertilizer
  
  
• Bedouin wedding feasts sometimes include a roast camel, stuffed with a sheep, stuffed with chickens. stuffed with fish and stuffed with eggs
  
  
• flavours of ice cream available in Japan include octopus, ox tongue, cactus, chicken wing and crab
  
  
• the Mongolian ruler Ghengis Khan imposed the death penalty for urinating in water because water was so precious in the Mongolian desert
  
  
• in Anglo-Saxon England, people who died in a famine were eaten by their neighbours!

*these facts are taken from the book Horrible Facts

float like a butterfly

float like a butterfly

sting like a bee

your hands cant hit

what your eyes cant see

its official

hey, have you heard? its official. putri mahirah's nervous system IS wrecked. YES, my nervous system is wrecked, turning my before squishy soft heart cold and hard. so go ahead, try me. but i have to say sorry in advance, because you'll be left disappointed =)

thank you Allah for this strength that is growing inside me =)

to better days ahead, and a stronger heart. ameen

nyte nyte

blood, toil, tears and sweat

only a few days after taking over as prime minister, Winston Churchill entered the House of Commons on may 13, 1940 to make a brief speech about forming an administration consisting of members from all of the major parties. he concluded:

"i say to the house as i said to ministers who have joined this government. i have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears and sweat. we have before us an ordeal of the most grievous time. we have before us many, many months of struggle and suffering.

you ask, what is our policy? i say it is to wage war by land, sea and air. war with all our might and with all the strength God has given us, and to wage war against a monsterous tyranny never surpassed in the dark and lamentable catalogue of human crime. that is our policy.

you ask, what is our aim? i can answer in one word. it is victory. victory at all cost, victory inspite of all terrors; victory, however long and hard the road may be, for without victory there is no survival.

i take up my task in buoyancy and hope. i feel sure that our cause will not be suffered to fail among men. i feel entitled at this juncture, at this time, to claim the aid of all and to say, 'come then, let us go forward together with our united strength',"

meet Rocky, my pet python! =)

this is not a joke, Rocky exists, and sedang hidup dengan cerianya :) Rocky is my 4 months old Ball Python. he's gentle, hygienic and doesnt bite. i get asked all the time, "why a snake?". well, its about getting over my fear actually. when i was little, i was afraid of drowning, until one day when i was 4, Ayahanda threw me into the pool *splash* (yes, he literally campak me!). that was when i know i had no choice but to learn to be comfortable underwater. years after, swimming became one of my favourite pass time. same goes with having Rocky. tho i have always like snakes, there are some features of them that i still fear. a snake can be unpredictable, it can strike you anytime if you approach it the wrong way. in folklore, snakes are pictured as evil, with a twisted tongue. but dont we face these features everyday in humans as well? people can be very unpredictable, and their words, can be as poisonous as a snake's venom. so, to be able to hold Rocky in my hands, is a part of me getting over my fears. snakes are actually misunderstood. we humans think that they like to attack us. whereas in truth, they only attack us when they feel threatened. plus, i personally think snakes (the nonpoisonous ones that is) make the best pet. its not smelly or messy like cats or hamsters. and it eats once a week, twice the most. and God, Rocky is like the most slow moving pet i ever have! ;p so Rocky, welcome to the family! :)

my journey to space

no, i did not board a soyuz and went to the outer space for real. the reason this post is titled as such is because i feel that i have been in a phase of exploration which lead me to the discoveries of new lessons. they are not all good, but precious, definitely. it feels like i entered a whole new dimension, where most things are foreign. what seems to be near, can turn out to be so faraway, and distant. once i thought i could hold the North Star in my hand, only to realize a millisecond later that it is still millions of light years away. on a pitch black canvas, more often than not, i find that colours, and sizes can be very deceiving. so i have learned that one must never judge. there are times when i feel like falling deeply into a black hole. the ground is nowhere to be seen. imagine, your body feels numb, you cant control it. the force of gravity is just too strong to defy. once or twice i find myself wondering aimlessly in an open space, not knowing which way to go. worse, i am not even in control of my navigation.

to cut it short, i have learned that

• things are never the way you expect it to be.
  
  
• to find sincerity is as hard as to spot a black ant on a black rock in the darkness of a pitch black night, when there is no single star in the sky.
  
  
• people are not just people, who are worth only a click. when you need them, you press the call button. when you dont, you push the reject button. this is not the movie "Click" where you can just click a button to unwind things and act as if nothing ever happened.
  
  
• life, does not revolve around us alone. it is not always about us.
  
  
• stop sweeping off the dirt under the carpet. when there are issues, deal with it on the table.
  
  
• good news travel fast. bad news, travel faster.
  
  
• a true companion, is indeed, one in a million.
  
  

all in all, i am grateful for this journey. it is unequivocally, worth the ride, and worth the pain.

to space, and back

Assalamualaikum folks :)

first and foremost, allow we to put forward thousands of apologies for the super looooooong hiatus. trust me, this was not intentional. i attempted a post several times but it always ended up as a draft due to my inability to finish it up. so much things have been going on, i get a mind block every time i try to put it into words. you know when you have so much to tell you get this word rush, they all try to come out all at once, that they stumble upon each other and ended up being clogged half way. haha. hence, the growing number of pieces in the draft department. sorry again if this page disappoint you with the absence of updates. please be patient with me, and give me time to put my journey to space nicely.

to you out there who frequent my page, thank you very much. and please dont give up on me. come back yea! ;)

*and to the one who loves the challenge of hacking my account, no thanks. i believe you have better things to do ayte? respecting other's privacy cant be that hard, right mate? :)